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Created on 2004-01-27 21:12:14 (#2030956), last updated 2004-04-24
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Basic Info| Name: | // N.E.R.D.Y |
|---|---|
| Birthdate: | 07-02 |
| Location: | Hensonville, New York, United States |
BioAs the days pass slowly
And the weeks creep by
I found myself obsessing
About ways that i could die
I lay awake at night
Thinking of my pain
There is no way it can get better
I have nothing left to gain
Suddenly thoughts of death
Are controlling my every move
And every battle with my mind
I always seem to lose
I no longer want to be around
The people that i love
All that i can think about
Is whats waiting up above
I cut my arms with razor blades
To dull the pain inside
But that can only last so long
I dont want to be alive
I manage to keep my composure
When people are around
They wouldnt understand me
So i dont make a sound
I smile when i have to
I break down when i dont
I know i should be strong
But i also know i wont
So i make a plan to take some pills
It shouldnt take too long
I write out notes to all my friends
To read when i am gone
I ask my mom to understand
That life is just to hard
My mind cant fight it anymore
My heart is far to scarred
I plan it out so perfectly
I even set the date
I'm pretty sure im ready
I know this is my fate
My bed is made up neatly
And i take them one by one
I start to feel a little scared
I know im almost done
All that i can think about
Is how im letting go
And how much i love my family
I really hope they know
My eyes are getting heavy
My body feels so weak
Everything inside is numb
Thats the way it as to be
I give into the darkness
I slowly slip away
I hope i go to heaven
Where dark night turns to day
Im glad that moms not here right now
To watch me slowly die
But still i wish that i could say
"I love you and good-bye"
If you wanna know anything about me, IM me (x 1 last kiss) or comment me.
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